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[08 May 2005|10:43pm] |
if I am not online for a while its because my computer is officially dead. yes I have another and a laptop that I can get on but there will be no gaming on them.
I am beginning to think that there is a virus embedded in the bios because I just finished reformating and reinstalling windows and the second reboot after I finished the updates the virus came back so I am in the process of getting ready to wipe my back up drive now. if that doesnt work I am gonna flash the bios if that doesnt well that only leaves me having to get another MB which may take a while
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[16 Apr 2005|01:01pm] |
I forgot to take my meds last night thats why I am acting insane...oh wait I am
at the same time if anyone is reading this I am either getting the slent treatment back on trillian or people arent getting my messages.View this post on my blog
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[16 Apr 2005|12:50pm] |
Ok I got my mind started now it wont stop
I am sure you asking why I am posting all this stupid boring shit that someone has already thought up(maybe not at the age when I orignnally thought it up) but still irrellivant today and the answer is...
Because its MY BLOG and I will post what ever the fuck I feel like and if I want to post about how your shit stank last week when I was at your house I will. I dont have any secrets that could fuck up the world or cause it to implode if you dont like my blog DONT FUCKING READ IT. if you do enjoy it fine. if you enjoy it enough to comment PLEASE do. sorry just had to get that off my chest
btw I have got my 1969 charger in Midnight Club 3 Dub Edition and it only took me a few hours. its an awesome game and highly recommended if my opinion counts for shit.
and in other news my healer on COH is 41. which is probably as high as he will get for a while as guild wars is about to start up in fact I should be playing that now. it just doesnt sound good to me.
Have I gone off the deep end enough for now? no... ok then I will continue to rain piss and blood on your world.
I could go on a music rant but I dont feel like it cause www.metalsludge.tv has said just about everything I ever wanted to say including get your head out of your ass and make some good music for the fans that love you(to many to list here)
yeah I have almost cut caffienee out of my diet and I have lost some weight from the new job yay. now the other 100lbs needs to drop the fuck off.
As you can tell this side of me doesnt come out often but it does every now and then. I need some caffienne about now and I dont really have the money to go get any. you know why because I am just a poor ass white boy that doesnt know how to spend his money and have some left over for binges like this. that fucking ok cause I got a roof over my head my dream car and a job with food in the cubert. what more could a man ask for....a hell of a lot more if you ask me. but your not so I am not gonna give it to you. you dont want to hear my boring ass rant anyways.
computers suck you know why because .... ok if I put something here my computer will shut down and I wont beable to post. if this fucking restart dialog doesnt stop comming up I am gonna click the wrong button here in a min and cause it to restart without posting... who fucking cares you say? I fucking care, you fucking rat bastard go hell in your dorthy shoes and your wizard of oz looking self
next your gonna be asking me whats my future you fake psychic. I dont fucking know nor do I fucking care you know why? because it doesnt fucking involve me. right at this very moment its all about ME dont you fucking get it? ME ME MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME!
I wanna talk about me I wanna talk about I wanna talk about #1 oh me memememememememe ... youyouyouy....
ok I gotta restart now... later..View this post on my blog
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| more on thy wishes sire(with a little ranble on the side) |
[16 Apr 2005|12:16pm] |
here are a few more things I have come up with...(ie type till I cant think of any more)
time travel(being invisible and unable to affect the past or future)
solar system, plane, or dimensional travel (see above for how it would be done)
x-ray vision to see though things(super human qualities I know could be expanded beyond belief but that is all I would ask for... no flying, swimming without breathing, super strength etc...)
a cook that can cook what ever I want when I want but knows how to balance it out to make a healthy meal(all I would have to do is say the name and they know how to make exactly what I am talking about)
a protective invisible bubble around me that doesn't affect anyone. it keeps any one I don't want out/away from me(yes this may fit under super human powers but its only a precautionary measure for having all of the ability I have with the wishes) with great power comes great sacrifice I know...
this wouldn't necessarily have to be a wish because it could be bought(all for the young at heart but open to most all ages)
the ultimate paint ball course/set up motorcycles/go-carts/rocket launchers/bases etc...
along with this center a water park/bumper boats/slides/pools etc.
Virtual worlds(battletech/red planet among others)/game room/computer networked game room/miniature golf
go-cart tracks/dirt bike tracks/small raceway
of course a place to eat(that has normal priced food)/clean up/change
near by a six flags/roller coaster park.
with all of this you asking why not just take over the world. Thats not my goal here. the goal is to have every material thing you want/wish without affecting the world around you to an extent. Even if you took over the world and had everything you ever wished for doesn't mean your going to be happy. You could wish someone to love you, bring someone back that you love. To me that is not what I am going for. I want everyone to like me for who I am. Not how much money, stuff I have, or me wishing it on them. Yes wishing for all the stuff an getting it could change me and eventually push me to an evil side which it has in past lives(if you believe in them) thats why I try to look at all sides when it comes to wants/needs. Yes some times I don't always do that but thats part of what makes me who I am. I learn from the stuff that I got and didn't really need or turned out to not want later.
if I did have all of those wishes I could cure/fix many things and there wouldn't be any cancer or aids etc. That goes back to the affecting the world wide thing. So I could not consciously do that and except hell not to come from a different direction.
wow I keep digging myself a bigger hole here maybe I should stop while I am ahead for now and get to work.
While it is fun to dream of what you can't have if you look hard you see why you cant have it(or you should even if its not obvious that way everyone would know what why and when they can and cant have stuff).
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[09 Apr 2005|11:10am] |
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I did forget to state one thing last night in my post. Of course if I could I would ask for more wishes. Assuming that is or isnt possible would be a deciding factor. for the sake of reason for posting more ideas I will say that is possible. please post replies for what you would wish for. (besides money, perfect body, perfect life, everyone to love you etc....)
4 I would ask for a hand held device I could carry around in my pocket that could call up any song any place any time. basicly an mp3 player with radio on demand
5 Time travel knowing everything I know now. This one would be iffy at best because you can do so much with that knowldege and change so much you might not like what you change it in to.
6 a map you can pull up in your head or out of your pocket to show exactly where you are and what and where you need to go to get to your destination. Even for virtual worlds.
that is all for now post some of your own
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[09 Apr 2005|12:43am] |
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Hello I know I am sparse at posting. At the best. I have an idea that might get me to post more we shall see.
I was sitting here playing Adventure Quest (www.battleon.com) which is a free RP game that is made in flash while its cool and all it gives you plenty of time to let your mind wander esp when your playing on a computer that is lagging.
I got to thinking about how i used to make up things when I was younger laying in bed. How I used to make up these very elaborate stories that I would visualize in my head just before I went to sleep. I mainly only remember doing it in the apt where I live now. I know I did it else where but I really dont remember where. That seems to be a creative side of me that has never gone away. I really didnt want to let anyone know about it because I felt it was stupid and childish. I have been thinking how now I still do it more rarely. Since a lot of my life "dreams/fantasies/day dreams" what ever want to call it. Have a)either come to a harsh reality they will never be or b)they just became boring. IE married to the most beautiful girl in the world, and have a perfect life with all the fun you could ever have, never run out of money etc. While some of that creativity was really good and for the most part impossible. One of the things that seemed to come up often was "what would I do if I had 3 wishes?" The obvious things back then would have been money, perfect body/perfect intellect/perfect personality, along with a perfect woman. Now that I have you yawning with boredom I will just cut to the chase. I want to list things here that if I had 3 wishes I think would be interesting besides the normal things of course. Now I don't know if I can come up with 3 a day for long so I don't think it will be a daily thing it would probably be best to do a weekly thing but I will just post it as it comes to me. I am going to give a few that I can think of now.
1. Remote control vehicles(cars trucks planes boats etc.) that could be controlled from like video game set up(after burner) but you had cameras on them so you could see all around them. You could link them up though satellites, cell towers, FM radio waves etc. to control them to send them all over the world. Along with little weapons on them that wouldn't hurt humans at least not severely. Grant it I know we have the technology to build something like this I just don't know if the communication is there to take a remote jet across an ocean. Esp. one as small as I am talking about. Let alone fuel issues, flight problems(hitting other things) etc.
2. On another end of the spectrum. This is definitely gonna show the mail side of me. A never ending orgasm feeling going though your body that makes you feel like your having the best one you have ever had each time. Not practical because you would get used it then you really wouldn't want sex. Its just one that came to mind.
3. I know they are already a reality and could be in the near future(20 years or so) but a Flying car.
I am sure I could post many many more with my mind the state its in but I would rather hold in a few for later so you have to keep comming back to see them :-) View this post on my blog
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| whoa look out |
[15 Mar 2005|10:21am] |
Its my monthly posting A lot has happend. I have a job now working on computers. I have a new car. A new born great nephew. Still working on the house but slowly getting there. Since I am getting ready for work I dont have much time.
The newborn is David Wayne 3/12/05 3:11am 6lbs 3oz not sure about the length. He is healthy and being a normal little one. Piuctures soon to follow
The car is a Mazda 3 which hopfully I will finish the paper work up today and get it detailed. Pictures soon to follow hopefully.
The job is great. Its what I have wanted to do for a while now. as long as the jobs come in I wont have any problems making a living
As for the house not much is left title to be put in mine and my sisters name. then actually moving in. Not sure where the money is comming for that though
that is all for now as I gotta go get ready
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[13 Feb 2005|08:52am] |
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Long time since I have been up this early willingly huh? yeah. I have actually been up since a little before 5 because of my stomach. I went back to bed at 6 but Chloe(possibly our new puppy) needed to go out so I took her and decided to stay up for now.
the day be for vday. It looks like Amanda is getting the puppy clothes for vday so I don't have to get her anything. nice of her.
it looks like I will have the house in a couple of days we got the papers to sign Friday as long as Robert gets his back in a couple days we can start moving in and stuff.
no luck on a job as of right now though I have been looking harder but i was bed ridden for 3 day s this past week sick.
my niece is on my last nerve. she runs off to Houston with her soon to be husband(this week) and does all kinds of drugs(though I have no hard proof of this if the dead could speak like the living I would) hurting the baby inside her and the one with her. Then she acts like nothing is wrong or she has done nothing wrong. Then she wants me to lie for her and get her gov assistance. While this would help my sister out tremendously and it supposedly keep the responsibility off of me and her. Amanda doesn't think it will and thinks that they will come down on us for fraud when she has the baby. As they check all babies now for drugs and my niece is going to get caught. She I think is over reacting to the situation because she doesn't want me to get hurt. I understand that. Saving my sister 1000+ dollars after her giving me her part of the house. is something small I feel I could do without relatively low risk. Yes I could get in trouble yes I could go to jail. mean while the father/marriage thing might and will hopefully fall a part cause the attorney general stuff came though for child support. I just don't like be stuck in the middle. (please comment on this if you have an opinion or have further questions)
I have been racking up levels on COH I am up to 34 with my main character. They are steady putting out updates which is cool
yeah I miss my mom. I Honestly think its harder now on me than when she passed. Maybe because I didnt want to feel the pain I blocked it and now its comming out
I signed up for some psychic courses which are helping me out and learn the ways of the trade I just didnt realize how much tarot cards where a deciding factor of everything. I knew meditation was an every day things though so that was no big shocker. So far I like what I have learned. I need to find my tarot cards so I can do a reading on the instructor
I have been on a lot of nostagic trips lately reviewing my life and wishing I could be at certian places in it again. I am sure that is just a normal thing though.
I did pay to have a psychic reading done recently. As I wanted to find out about my niece and other things. I got one of the best I must say. she picked up stuff that she would have had to of known me otherwise to get. she did confirm that I am gonna be working with computers and psychic stuff for a while, before I switch over competely. I got a ton of info for an hour reading lot more than I am gonna post here thats for sure :-) I think there is a possiblity I could be a psychic on the web.
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| an update |
[10 Jan 2005|03:09pm] |
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I sent out a blanket email to most but some did not get this.
I am now officially engaged to Amanda. As of yesterday when we where at Dave and Busters I preposed after/during the meal. with a 1/3 ct diamond ring. She said yes.
I am now looking for a job. I took a short break to post all of this wonderful news and catch up. View this post on my blog
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[10 Jan 2005|03:06pm] |
- Pistol:: laser
- Rick:: james
- Full circle:: perfect circle
- I wish:: for a million dollars
- Frame:: up
- Adult:: movie
- Photography:: naked women
- Stew:: food
- Cheat:: code
- Brad::
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| Tuesdays Is Choose Day |
[10 Jan 2005|03:03pm] |
either leave your answers or a link to your webpage with your responses.
Would you rather: - work at a company that regularly tests hair care products on animals OR regularly buries toxic waste illegally?
- for an entire month, eat everything through a straw OR deep fried?
- invent the next popular kids toy OR sex toy?
- find out your neighbor is a spy for an enemy nation OR a black ops assassin for your government?
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[08 Dec 2004|09:58am] |
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Yeah, I am angry with god(s) right now. even though I can talk to her spirit its not the same as in person. The spirit only seems to nag at me most of the time. I know my mother loves me but hearing get off your ass and go look for a job gets old. I love my mom but she should know constant nagging isnt going to get me off my ass.
I am very tired this morning and wanting to go back to sleep but I know I shouldn't so I will fight the tiredness probably by playing games probably nes(nintendo) games. Its actually pretty cool this morning I actually got up and put a sweater on. which reminds me amanda is supposed to get up in 4 min....
hopefully I can get my other computer up and working today so I can have an mp3 server and more. I have dos6.22, windows3.11 and windows xp on the system so hopefully that will be enough to get all my games running and other things stay going. Although I do need to put the sound card in the other computer.
hope everyone is having a good wed. so far I better get amanda up and take out the trash. View this post on my blog
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| Rant Rave bitch and moan |
[24 Nov 2004|11:29am] |
Well now that you know I am gonna get some things off of my chest. I will start with the obvious. I signed up for a STARZ account a couple of days ago. I decided it was not for me. so I wanted to cancel. I went to cancel the account. I got a phone number to call and cancel. while this was 3am that I got this number they where not open. I hate calling in to cancel account because they want to know why your canceling and so they can talk you out of it. So I was on the defensive when I called in. The company that runs it is REAL. I stopped giving them my money a while back because there content and programs went to shit. Had I know when I signed up it was REAL I would not have signed up. At any rate I call REAL that is originally a US company. Yet I get this NON engish speaking motherfucker that I can barely understand. Putting me on the defensive even more. I was honestly ready to cuss him out. I knew this wouldnt do any good working in Tech support for years. So I muddled my way though the call and hopefully my account is cancelled. if it isnt I will call my bank I will charge them back.
I could use some more sleep but I guess that will have to wait because a show is comming on I want to watch. well I am to tired to go on anymore I will post more later.View this post on my blog
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[16 Nov 2004|02:53pm] |
- Childhood:: happiness
- Ransom:: the movie
- Melissa:: high school friend
- Trust me:: the famous words you never want to hear
- Report:: what your boss does when you do something wrong
- Give up:: a lot of people do that now days
- Nightgown:: sexy dress for a woman to wear to bed
- Smokes:: a house on fire?
- Cookies & cream:: ice cream
- Gameshow:: host....celebrity jeopardy
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| Tuesdays Is Choose Day |
[16 Nov 2004|02:47pm] |
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either leave your answers or a link to your webpage with your responses.
Would you rather: - be able to speak four languages fluently OR be an expert plumber, electrician, and contractor?
- never know your real parents OR find out one of your parents is an escaped convict?
- get stopped by every red light when driving OR always have to pick out a wedgie?
- have hair grow on your tongue OR warts on your nose?
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[16 Nov 2004|01:29pm] |
if its something you might like comment here and we/I can decide if its worth the effort to have.
on another note I have opened up my eyes. I see many things I have not seen in the past. Mainly because I chose ot over look them because I didnt want to deal with them. the time will come that I do deal with them. But it will have to happen when its timeView this post on my blog
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| is blog for me? |
[13 Nov 2004|09:17am] |
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Is a blog format really for me? I don't really know.
I say I will do this but the updates are random. it seems like as soon as I set my mind to do something like this its forgotten.
I feel like such a flake at times because of this. i haven't done song of the day in 4 or so days now. when I changed the format I just kinda didn't feel like it anymore. does that mean I need to go back to the old way? I don't know. I think I am kinda tired of it already mainly cause no ones interested.
I know it sounds like I am having a pity party over here but I am not really I am just questioning a lot of things right now.
We(Amanda and I) tried to go out last night for the first time in ages and it turned out to be a complete flop. I knew it from the minute they said northgate(where all the college bastards/bitches go on the weekend) I knew it was going to be hard to get parking and it was going to be crowded. I was right on both counts we had to park 3(or so) blocks away at a church. We realized Amanda didn't have her cell. I had mine but it didn't have the number of the others we where supposed to meet up with. I try telling Amanda its going to be hard to find them. I was right. there was a sea of people way before we got to Dudley's or shadow canyon. we turned around and ended up going home. We where going to see a movie but there is shit on for movies now. so we ended up playing games all night. which was fun but nothing I don't normally do.
I guess you can tell I am starting to get restless in the house here 24/7. while I really do like it and I could live like this forever. at the same time I know I can't because my money isn't going to last forever. I know I am gonna have to get a job soon which sucks but it may be better than sitting at the house 24/7 which is what I do mostly since Amanda got her license. I am getting fatter by the day I think I am up to lbs if not over it. Thats the part that scares me the most I think. I don't have the will power to get out and do anything about it or the energy
so far I have managed to cheat my way to beating Leisure suit Larry. which I have to admit was pretty good and funny. Yeah the beautiful women in it helped me stay with it. I can honestly say it was the story line that kept my full attention. Even though in the end I ended up using cheats to get past the harder games
Simcity 4 deluxe turns out it kinda of sucks. I don't know but I doubt I will keep playing it. COH may be getting shut down if Marvel(lets sue everyone who might have something to do with taking our thoughts and making money on them)gets its way. I thought about starting a petition online for COH but I read some up on it. A lot of people are for and against it I don't really think a petition online is really gonna help them in court.
at any rate I am gonna close this for now and maybe I will pick it up later View this post on my blog
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| Unconscious Mutterings |
[09 Nov 2004|01:05pm] |
- Small Talk:: babble
- Evidence:: gun
- Drifting:: floating
- Hostage:: girl tied up
- Beauty:: many meanings but first thought is long red hair
- Automatic:: transmission
- Asking for it:: cause I am gonna pullverize them
- Visene:: ?? not a word I could find
- No strings attached:: yeah right
- Frizz:: burned out 80's rockers
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